I don't know when my happy ending is going to be; in other words, when my sadness is going to come too.

There is no rainbow without rain; there is always happiness after the agony part.

Has everyone ever noticed how pathetic they can be. One minute, we are all laughing, filled with joy and happiness, but nor did you realize in the next minute, there you go, your agony. There's always something that never fails to ruin the happiness.

Sometimes when I think about it, is it just me or everyone else too? Am I, or are we all not supposed to be happy?

Are we all being punished for our whole life with sadness?

So if I finally truly find happiness, but I am fully aware it may not last. The happiness that may end out of the blue. All the memories might have turned to black and white in a blink of an eye. What am I supposed to do? Am I supposed to end the story? The happy ending? The part I wanna see, the only part I wanna believe it exists. 

In every fairytales, I wonder, how does the story go on? Even in those TV series or the next episode, there is always a problem. There is no episode without problems or just pure happiness and good news. Did anyone ever realize that? So what about me? What's my next chapter gonna be? It is either half happiness and half sadness or fully sadness and still looking for the light in the darkness.

I am scared. I really am. 

Terrified, anxious, lost, agonized, deprived, flabbergasted, everything is combined as one.

At this very moment, you're my everything; my source of happiness.