In this kind of society, nowadays, all people do is to compare. People used to say, "What matters is the end, the journey does not." Then why am I getting bothered so much. Why do people still blabber unstoppably about these kind of stuffs. I just totally dont get it.

I am so envious of those people that can enjoy life. Arent we all supposed to enjoy our student lives?! So many adults actually regretted it, and that's one thing I dont really wanna be regretful about in the future. I wanna graduate fast, but not too fast. I wanna enjoy it and learn really well but not taking too long like 5-6yrs. That'll be ridiculous. So why can't I have that. Why don't I get those freedoms..

You gotta be this, this, this, and that. I thought... No one is perfect in this world. No matter what. Then theres nothing wrong with trying to be, but I don't think it is actually necessary to force it.

Yes, I do wanna be that girl who is able to take care of her appearance but not forgetting her studies, career, and future. But I'm not really into stressing about it. These won't leave my mind ever since high school. Why can't I have a peaceful year, just for once?

I am so tired, so exhausted.

I wish that..

The world would actually stop, even just for a moment. 

Let me take a deep breath and relax.

Just for a while. Please.