Everyone has the right to be comfortable in their own skin but with all the judgments given by people around us, it is one hell of a task to do. Personally, I am aware I am neither skinny nor obese. I am meat-y but not to the point of 'fat'. But once again, people's definition of 'fat' and 'skinny' are different. I have been trying to lose weight back to my previous weight. I gained like almost 20lbs and only lost like half of it. Still tryna lose more but it gets hard. I gotta be honest, i love foods. They are so irresistible! I dont like to do diets or skipping meals or starving myself. I only 'starve' myself on midnights when I'm about to sleep. My mom wants me to lose weight so bad especially girls nowadays are expected to be skinny and if you're fat, you're just basically ugly. I found some people who actually look good even when they are fat. But it does not seem that way for some people. I was about to just lose it naturally by trying to accept my body the way it is. Just do it slowly by reducing my meals but when I start doing that and accepting the fact that i am meat-y, people around me start pressurizing me again to make me lose it fast! It's not the best feeling but I know they want it for my own good. But sometimes, you know when you just wanna accept who you are and not try so hard to fit to what people's desires. But you know what, I've learned the hard way, it is just harsh to try to survive if you are not up to this society's expectations. Yes, that's how cruel this world is.

Sometimes I wish I can talk this out, but this kind of topic is embarrassing and sometimes you just dont find the right people to share it with.

I sincerely hope this society will change for the better. Let people accept who they are regardless how they look. People should be just acceptable and meat-y as long as they are not overweight, which is unhealthy, rather than being anorexic. The most important thing is, they just gotta be able to accept who they are and love themselves. It is just sickening looking at how people judge each other and all those cyber bullying. What has this generation become?!